My eyes burn from tears and my body feels heavy. I’m tired. Its been a tough day and the emotional stress has taken its toll.
We said goodbye to a permanent resident today. We euthanized a dog with love and tears. He was orphaned suddenly and unexpectedly and we took him in knowing he was in advanced renal failure. We knew his time would be short and our hearts were heavy with grief.
But, we roll on. We continue to care when our hearts are bleeding and broken. We talk about taking in more animals on a day we say goodbye to one. A day where we question our choices as we hiccup and sniff back tears.
The vet gave him a sedation to make him comfortable and then started an IV. Dr Marissa said: let me know when you’re ready and we’ll give Blue a lethal dose of anesthetic.
The tears landed on Brent’s arm as I bent over to kiss Blue’s head. I told him he was very loved and that we’d miss him, but his mama was waiting. I nodded at Dr. Marissa and she slowly pushed the plunger on the syringe.
The dog took a deep breath, more of a sigh, as we whispered sweet words of affection. Surrounded by love he took his last breath and rode my tears to his next adventure. I asked him to let me know when he was safe and the moment he took his last breath my cell phone chirped signaling a text message. We laughed uncomfortably.
It was a long while later when I looked at my phone to find a message from my mother-in-law wishing Blue a safe journey into Karen’s arms.
My cell phone chirp is a barking dog.
It was a clear message that Blue was safe and with his mama. We raise a glass to a classy lady and her heart dog reunited forever.